Transvestia

feeling and being feminine which surpass some of the joys of feeling and being masculine.

After all I can visualize a state of boredom with many aspects of the masculine life which we have been expressing in a routine way throughout our lives. The novelty of some feminine activities (sewing, laundering, ironing, etc.,) can be much more stimulating, less boring and more challenging than any of the various masculine activities we have been engaged in year after year for the greater part of our life time. Let me give you a personal experience. My twin brother is a lover of chess. There have been periods in his life in which he would spend every hour of his free time studying chess, playing chess by mail, or simply indulging in long chess sessions at some chess club. But then Susanna broke loose from her cocoon. During the early part of her liberation she carried on with her brother's love for chess, until one day she found it necessary to fix a dress. This she had never done before, but she found it challenging and somehow it "felt" right.

To make the story short chess is all but forgotten (and you know how difficult it is to discard an all-consuming hobby you've cherished since childhool). Inasmuch as Susanna has taken over most of her brother's "free" time, she spends a good part of that available time in "her" hobby which now has become a normal part of her weekly "normal" activities. If you confront me Susanna today with a choice between fixing a skirt and playing a game of chess, all my heart and soul will turn toward the thread and needle, because it is now an intimate part of this personality which has been developing more and more year after year. Does this mean that my "potential" was stronger than yours? No. Simply that my circumstances have been different and that I have willingly plunged deeper into the world of feminine activities because I was willing to discard a good part of my masculine activities. However we do agree in one thing. You refer to the fact that you are just as happy with your lower dressing percentage than those who dress for longer periods of time. This needs no explanation. Happiness cannot be defined and each individual finds it in his or her own scheme of things. For the same reason we find non-TV's who are just as happy, or much happier than a TV who dresses for long periods of time. His sources of contentment and fulfillment are elsewhere. Personally I have never been happier than when I am